Monday, January 24, 2011

Corey March 10, 1986-January 26, 2010

Here I am wondering what and how I will spend my day celebrating my son Corey's life.  I still can't believe that it will be one full year since his passing this Wednesday the 26th.

He led such an incredible life!  An amazing Teacher to all that he touched.  For never speaking a word, except for the few times he was able to utter "Mom," he was the most incredible speaker I've ever encountered, besides the Lord of course!  Corey led others to the Lord, changed some beliefs that the disabled were an accident, or their was no value or quality of Life...  However, not everyone was/is willing to change, I feel very sad for and continue to pray for those, they are missing the fruit or essence of life...

 I believe I have just discovered HOW I will be spending my day with Corey.  In my journal, reminiscing all of the lessons of life I have learned from my incredible son.  All of the blessings he brought into our world, and all of the lives he so positively touch and blessed.  Thank you Lord for blessing me and my family so abundantly with Corey's presence for so many years, I am truly grateful for every moment I was able to spend with him.

I will always keep you close in my heart my dear child, and will never forget your incredible spirit of giving and loving!  Love Mommy.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Day Trip to an old, yet familiar place...

It will never cease to amaze me, how at one moment I am snuggled comfy watching cooking video podcasts.  Then 20 minutes later, being 400 feet above the floor of a canyon on a dirt trail, or should I say ditch, holding on for dear life, while we are 4 wheeling our way to Trinity County. 

What an incredible day with my guys!!  Ron and Ricky both encouraged me to join them...  In fact, they are in here with me at this moment encouraging me to hurry up, so we can do it again, only to a different spot.  Yikes, why, why, why???  How do I get myself into this stuff...???  Wish me luck and will post photos when we return...

Friday, January 21, 2011

Living on Earth

I remember being so young and ambitious, excited to find what life had waiting for me.  I was going to conquer the world.  I so wanted to make a change and a difference in this world.

I was 21 when I transferred to Chico State to finish my studies in Special Education.  I was so full of life and ambitious.  I remember meeting Ron, my future husband.  We had so much fun together, discovering all of our likes and dislikes.  I remember our biggest dilemma was trying to figure out where to go for dinner.  We were both so passionate and excited about our future dreams of our life together.  We had talked about everything, like how many children we wanted, to how much our incomes would be, and what our new home would be like.  We discussed what type of parenting skills to practice, to which church we would make our home church.  Silly us!

We were right on target with our first pregnancy.  I had always had a sense of having a disabled child since I was in the 6th grade.  So Ron and I decided to get started earlier so not to be in our 30's for fear of a higher risk, once we were to have our pre-destined 3rd child.  So at age 25, I delivered a very unhealthy baby who sustained injuries during birth...  He actually did not survive the process.  Years later we discovered that detail, no one bothered asking us what we would choose.

This was the beginning of our long, staggering journey to Mars.

I am finding that it is becoming more populated every day.  I am portraying myself as the "Welcome Wagon lady."